if it's meant to be,it will be..

It wasn't as easy as one,two,three

The truth is that, you're just a stranger to me

 Still I don't know what you did to me

I guess it started with that snobbish look you gave to me

And now little by little I get to know you

And now I don't know

But I think I'm afraid to lose you

I know for a fact that we don't have anything yet

But one thing's for sure,you're someone I don't want to forget

But what can I do if you need to go

When I know I can't stop you from doing so

Though I understand  why you have to leave

It breaks my heart to finally see you leave

For when you go,my tears will flow

And my smile will start to fade I know

Though it's hard, I'll try to hide

All the hurts that I'm feeling inside

So little time to spend with you

So many things I wanna do

But I guess this is how our story goes

I know at some point I'll have to let you go

As difficult as it can be,you had me,I had you,but not really

I know this time there's nothing but goodbye

And all I can do is to fake a smile

But here in my heart I pray so hard

That one day we don't have to be apart...

You are my angel and my devil too,

But now that you're leaving what can I do?

It feels like hell to be away from you

And if ill be granted, i just want,one last moment with you...

For now my angel,my devil, I'll let you go your way

And I'll be hoping that one day we would still meet halfway..

IF IT'S MEANT TO BE,IT WILL BE.. - dempong

- a poem for a lost friend

I'm ready..so BRING IT ON 2011 :)

December 31,2010

It's the last day of December, and definitely the last day of the year :)

And since it's the last day of the year, I'm going to write my last blog for the year!

Year 2010 has been a so - so year for me..meaning it's not too good but not too bad either..in short SAKTO lang :)

As I look back i start to realize on how I spent my 2010,well last year..the same date, we did not really celebrate,my family did not even bother to wait for the upcoming year, my parents and siblings slept while i stayed awake writing a blog about what I felt that night.I can vividly remember how I felt that night..I was crying in front of the computer as I write about the hurts and pains that I'm feeling...all because last year was the very first year that my family's not complete for the new year..sad but true,we will never be complete because RON is now with our creator...but I know he will always be with us,though not physically...i know he will always be there watching over us..

Last year, I practiced my profession as a nurse,though it was on October 2009 when it started, I was a community health nurse until June 2010,I experienced attending seminars, attending medical missions,operation tuli,ambulating patients, bringing them to hospitals in Manila and in Mariveles, Bataan..the entire experience was fun..it was fulfilling..

I also had another job last year, I went back on teaching English to Korean students right after my contract at the LGU expired, i guess teaching will always be a a part of me..i just love doing it and I feel happy when I teach, so if they are going to ask me to teach again..I'd be very willing to do it again :)

I guess one highlight of my 2010 would be FALLING IN LOVE and FALLING OUT OF LOVE  at the same time :) (but i always fall in love every year!aha) YEP! I fell in love last year!! One of the most thrilling experiences ever..because it was just last year when I experienced a more matured kind of love, the kind of love that you thought would never end,,but of course it did END.. OK no bitterness :) I'm just trying to remember..I can remember the crazy things I did, all the letters, the gimiks and surprises!all in the name of LOVE!!aha..no regrets though..but as I said I also fell out of love..I broke my heart last year..the most painful heartbreak so far! (and i don't wanna experience it again!!aha) but of course it's not that I'm broken hearted the whole year,I was able to bounce back and be whole again only because I found a reason to move on!yay!!..

A lot of things happened, I also experienced being a "bum" for the longest time,spending most of my time at home, attending to my little brother and doing houseworks..it's not so bad after all :) I also had more arguments with my dad because I insist to work in Manila rather than stay and work here in Pampanga..I'm still going to insist i guess :)) 

If people will ask me if there are any regrets, I would have to say " A LOT"..but regrets will not do me any good.If I'm going to dwell on my regrets, I will never be able to move on..

So i guess it boils down to this..

Year 2010 has given me a lot of experiences...both good and bad..this year..

...decisions and sacrifices were made,i cried and laughed,i said things i thought i could never say,met new people,started friendship,ended some,broke my heart,broke someone else's heart,fell in love,fell out of love and eventually finding a new love..this year taught me lessons that I know ill never learn in any other way,things may be tough but I surpassed them all, and because of that I'm a better person..probably a matured one, a stronger one..

They say endings are beginnings...and as the year ends..I'm leaving behind all the negative vibes, all the hurts and baggages that may prevent me from giving my new beginning a warm welcome, but am definitely going to bring with me the learnings and experiences that 2010 gave me,as the new year comes I welcome it with happiness and love...

To all the people who became a part of my 2010,my family, my friends,old ones and new ones,and to a very special person..thank you for being a part of my 2010,thank you for staying with with me,for making my year simply amazing and worth everything..

and to my ENEMIES..you still have another year to try to break me,,but i bet you can't :) thank you for making my life more interesting :))

THANK YOU 2010!

Goodbye and Thank you 2010!!

Now I'm ready for new challenges and new learnings...

I'm ready for a new beginning..so BRING IT ON 2011!! :)

-rye