BIDA ako sa 2012! :)

Last year I wrote a blog for the coming year..and now..I'm writing again!! :)

Time passes by so fast,it seems like yesterday and now year 2011 is about to end..

I may have some regrets but I definitely have a lot of reasons to be thankful for..

And instead of jotting down my regrets..I'd rather reminisce 2011 in a positive way..

My year started with a job hunt..YEP! I had lots of job interviews and I landed as a Nurse Trainee in a hospital,and yes..it's my very first hospital exposure..I enjoyed the whole thing, I was assigned in the ward for 2 weeks and  was assigned at the Intensive Care Unit for the rest of my 6 months contract..I was able to practice my profession and one great thing is that I gained a lot of friends..my co vn's,the staff nurses and including my patients..

But sad to say,I left the hospital half hearted since I was not absorbed to be a staff nurse in the hospital,while some of our "kasabayans" are starting their nursing careers, (but I'm happy for them,HONESTLY) I (and some of my co - icu vn's) are struggling to start again.. (OK, I WAS bitter..who wouldn't be?but not anymore..aha)

So after six months in the hospital I was on gear for another job hunt! ( 2012 is a job hunt year for me)

But even before my contract as a nurse trainee ended Im already attending different job interviews,andyan yung pumunta ako sa senado,mag FA and last but not the least I HAD MY VERY FIRST AUDITION for a job that I've been dying to have! lol :)

Anyway,2011 also allowed me to meet new people,friends, acquaintances...enemies..name it.. I had it.. 

I also had my very first trip in Mindanao with some friends..( i wish to have more this coming year!)

Of course, the year wouldn't be complete without "love" .. talk about finding love,losing love,falling in love, falling out of love,falling back in love,sleepless nights,sugod sa ulan,waiting in vain etc...ahy whatever you call it..it was a roller coaster ride..and i don't want the same thing this year..so Cupid..please do your job well for me!nyaha --- I CALL THIS CUPIDITY! aka stupid cupid! :)

And the highlight of my year would be my very new job which just started last December 17,2011, it was not that easy I tell you..waiting for like 5 months for something you don't know if it would push through or not..it's frustrating..I was close to depression while waiting...aha! But as they say..something worth waiting is definitely worth having! and... jaraaann!!! I have a job already..something I'm so proud of..because I've worked hard for it,waited for it and definitely prayed for it!And now that I have it..i'll definitely give the best of my best to keep it! :)

And if there's one thing that I'd like to keep forever that I started in 2011,it would be my stronger relationship with the BIG BOSS! Planning to make it stronger this year and the years to come.. :)

2011 has been good to me..I still had a lot of ups and downs..a lot of struggles..but it doesn't matter anymore..because the year is about to end..and I'm smiling.. meaning : "i was able to surpass them all.."

So now that 2011 is about to end i  am thanking everyone who became a vital part of my life..

my family who would never leave me no matter what..(specially Ron,our angel)

my outrageous friends (specially my nastys plus jm) for always being there,for the best friendship ever..for being my sisters..

old friends for staying..for the friendship..

new friends for making my circle of friends bigger..for allowing me to be a new part of your life..

special people...for makin me smile and cry at the same time..nyaha..for inspiring me,for the good times and not so good times..lol

and to my enemies.. (kung meron pa,toinks!) another year for us..thank you big time for making me feel that I am better than I expected! nyaha.. you are the spice of my life!aha..Another year for you to break me..but again..I bet you can't! :)

and Papa God..thank you for allowing me to sail through 2011..

A few more hours...2011 will say goodbye..another ending..

And a new beginning is about to unfold..

thank you 2011...

Hello 2012!!! I bet you have something good in store for me!! 

And this year isa lang alam ko!!

"BIDA AKO,BIDA KA,BIDA TAYONG LAHAT!!" *wink!!

“A new year is unfolding,like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.”  

I'm ready..so BRING IT ON 2011 :)

December 31,2010

It's the last day of December, and definitely the last day of the year :)

And since it's the last day of the year, I'm going to write my last blog for the year!

Year 2010 has been a so - so year for me..meaning it's not too good but not too bad either..in short SAKTO lang :)

As I look back i start to realize on how I spent my 2010,well last year..the same date, we did not really celebrate,my family did not even bother to wait for the upcoming year, my parents and siblings slept while i stayed awake writing a blog about what I felt that night.I can vividly remember how I felt that night..I was crying in front of the computer as I write about the hurts and pains that I'm feeling...all because last year was the very first year that my family's not complete for the new year..sad but true,we will never be complete because RON is now with our creator...but I know he will always be with us,though not physically...i know he will always be there watching over us..

Last year, I practiced my profession as a nurse,though it was on October 2009 when it started, I was a community health nurse until June 2010,I experienced attending seminars, attending medical missions,operation tuli,ambulating patients, bringing them to hospitals in Manila and in Mariveles, Bataan..the entire experience was fun..it was fulfilling..

I also had another job last year, I went back on teaching English to Korean students right after my contract at the LGU expired, i guess teaching will always be a a part of me..i just love doing it and I feel happy when I teach, so if they are going to ask me to teach again..I'd be very willing to do it again :)

I guess one highlight of my 2010 would be FALLING IN LOVE and FALLING OUT OF LOVE  at the same time :) (but i always fall in love every year!aha) YEP! I fell in love last year!! One of the most thrilling experiences ever..because it was just last year when I experienced a more matured kind of love, the kind of love that you thought would never end,,but of course it did END.. OK no bitterness :) I'm just trying to remember..I can remember the crazy things I did, all the letters, the gimiks and surprises!all in the name of LOVE!!aha..no regrets though..but as I said I also fell out of love..I broke my heart last year..the most painful heartbreak so far! (and i don't wanna experience it again!!aha) but of course it's not that I'm broken hearted the whole year,I was able to bounce back and be whole again only because I found a reason to move on!yay!!..

A lot of things happened, I also experienced being a "bum" for the longest time,spending most of my time at home, attending to my little brother and doing houseworks..it's not so bad after all :) I also had more arguments with my dad because I insist to work in Manila rather than stay and work here in Pampanga..I'm still going to insist i guess :)) 

If people will ask me if there are any regrets, I would have to say " A LOT"..but regrets will not do me any good.If I'm going to dwell on my regrets, I will never be able to move on..

So i guess it boils down to this..

Year 2010 has given me a lot of experiences...both good and bad..this year..

...decisions and sacrifices were made,i cried and laughed,i said things i thought i could never say,met new people,started friendship,ended some,broke my heart,broke someone else's heart,fell in love,fell out of love and eventually finding a new love..this year taught me lessons that I know ill never learn in any other way,things may be tough but I surpassed them all, and because of that I'm a better person..probably a matured one, a stronger one..

They say endings are beginnings...and as the year ends..I'm leaving behind all the negative vibes, all the hurts and baggages that may prevent me from giving my new beginning a warm welcome, but am definitely going to bring with me the learnings and experiences that 2010 gave me,as the new year comes I welcome it with happiness and love...

To all the people who became a part of my 2010,my family, my friends,old ones and new ones,and to a very special person..thank you for being a part of my 2010,thank you for staying with with me,for making my year simply amazing and worth everything..

and to my ENEMIES..you still have another year to try to break me,,but i bet you can't :) thank you for making my life more interesting :))

THANK YOU 2010!

Goodbye and Thank you 2010!!

Now I'm ready for new challenges and new learnings...

I'm ready for a new beginning..so BRING IT ON 2011!! :)

-rye

the silence of the night.

reposted: January 01, 2010

it will be less than an hour before the year ends..i hear people outside,chatting and cheering,they seem to be excited about the coming year..the fireworks are starting,the noise is starting to fill the surroundings,but here i am..infront of the computer,trying to waste my time over the net..making myself busy..trying to ignore the sounds that i hear..

it seems unbelievable that we are not really celebrating NEW YEAR..in our house,there's nothing but silence..nothing but sadness and emptiness..it's just like an ordinary day..another hurting day..

i can imagine how great this day could be if we were complete..we would go to church,we would be preparing our meals,we will be just like any other family,happy and excited about the coming year..


i used to be very excited about this event...but now am just hoping that this day will pass as quickly as possible..my heart is breaking as i remember the way we celebrate this day..am wondering if we will still be able to celebrate any event without hurting,without crying...


here i am again..writing a note..could anyone see the tears i am crying now?could anyone feel the emptiness am feeling now?can anyone see me hurting?can anyone feel my pain?tell me..

everyone is excited,my friends are happy,they are celebrating,i can feel their happiness,they send me greetings and all,,but i can't even give them a good greeting back..


tonight..i am saying..life is unfair..
how can others be happy and i can't
how can they laugh when i can't even smile
how can they celebrate when i am mourning..
tell me how?

as i hear the noise outside,the pain sinks in..
as i hear their laughters my tears would not stop from falling..
as i see the bright lights,the darkness of sadness overshadows me..

.NEW year... another heartbreaking event for us,another crying night..another reminder of how things used to be..

sad and empty.hurting and crying.where do i go from here..