I just finished reading the note of my sister. I could not help but cry while reading her note. I felt the pain in her words and the hurts that she still has.Just like her, I still have the same amount of pain in my heart as I remember everything that happened.
Exactly the same date as last year, I was scheduled to go out with my friend jhem, just the usual, we'll have coffee and some chitchat.But for some reason I don't know..I didn't feel like going..I wanted to stay home and so unusual, I slept early.That night I just felt that I am sleeping but I am completely aware of what was happening.I was like half asleep.I know that my mom was still watching TV and all, then all of a sudden somebody from outside our house was shouting, i heard my mom open the windows and as she heard the news she was already in panic,she woke me up and in an instant I was on my feet rushing towards our door, but my mom was in panic and I told her to calm down so I could attend to my brother. I was running so fast, I saw a lot of people, I was looking for my brother, I saw someone brought in a vehicle, I checked, NO its not my brother..then I was in panic, I was shouting and screaming asking everyone where my brother was, and I saw him being carried in a vehicle, I was shocked, told the driver bring him to the hospital, I wasn't able to get in the same vehicle, I rode a jeepney, I begged him to go after the vehicle where my brother was..I was empty handed, I brought my brother in the hospital, I saw him..eyes half open, i told him not to close his eyes..I had to ask for help, I had to call someone, I did't have money to make a call, I was desperate, again I begged for the guards to let me in the hospital and allow me to make a call..I called my Tita Josie and told her what happened..My sister came, and my dad too..they asked me to go home to look after mama..I didn't know what to do..Mom was asking a lot of things, i know that she knows what was happening..I kept on denying..told her everything is going to be ok..and as I utter those words..Inside I was breaking apart..I kept on praying..
November 1 came, mom and I were waiting for calls, for updates..then Tata went home..He said we will go to the hospital to see my brother..From that moment..I knew something was wrong.. I know the scene..It's familiar..I was holding back my tears..At that moment we arrived in the hospital, I felt so weak, I didn't want to see my brother on that bed..WE prayed..I prayed so hard to GOD..asking him to spare the life of my brother..I was begging for Him to answer my prayers..butNO, HE didn't LISTEN to me..HE took away my brother..
At this point in my life, I still have a lot of questions..specially to HIM.. I want to ask HIM why? Can't He see the pain that our family is going through? WE are hurting.. it's been a year and we are still hurting..
but then again..who am I to ask,who am I to question His will?..YES we are hurting..YES we are in pain..but at the end of it all, when we no longer know where to get hope and we no longer know where to gain strength..IT's only HIM to whom we can turn to..
It's been a year since my brother Ron left us..a year of sadness, pains and hurts..But I know, Ron will never be at peace if he sees us unhappy with our lives, with the kind of personality that Ron has.. I know that he prefers to see us happy..
RON..it's been a year wali, we miss you so much..your ways, your face and everything about you.. I know that you are now in the arms of our Creator, I know that you are watching us from above..Ron, we will not and we will never forget you, for you are and will always be a part of our family..it will always be..
TATA,MAMA,REN,RYE,RON,REV,RAM.We will always be TOGETHER..
We will always pray for you Ron, that you may be truly happy in the arms of our ALMIGHTY FATHER..and that you may get the JUSTICE that you truly deserve..
To everyone who has been a part of RON'S life, may you continue to remember him, may you never forget him, his charm, his face and his sweet little ways that has touched your lives..We ask you to continue praying for RON and for US, his family.
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS RON.WE LOVE YOU.
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